Because you cheated
I will never be the same person because of your choices and your actions; the old me has died. So I grieve the loss of self, loss of our marriage, loss of my past, loss of the future we had planned, loss of my best friend, loss of trust, loss of faith in soul-mates and true love, and the loss of the man I knew and loved throughout my entire being.
To think about
The name of the blog
"It was never just an affair" needs to be in quotations, because it was something my ex-husband said to me early on in the break-up. I guess he thought it might make me feel better to know it wasn't just a fling per say, it was real love? It didn't make me feel better. Him ending the affair and being willing to work on the marriage would have made me feel better.